I loved feeling her little body breathe and wiggle. I cupped my hand under her little feet and noticed she liked to push against me just to make sure I was there. If my hand relaxed at all, she'd push more and wriggle to remind me to put it back up. My other hand was across her back to keep her warm and if I moved it all, she'd squirm until I brought it back, too. Shes's so funny--she knows exactly what she wants--and I can't tell you how fulfilling it was to be able to give it to her.
Being a mom is still surreal. Sometimes I still think she's in my belly and I'll think she can hear me play classical music to her. Having her on my chest was a reminder for me that she's really here. What's more surreal, though, is that she really recognizes ME as her mom.
I remember when I was first married, I kept thinking, "I'm married? I'm MARRIED?" It took a couple months to get used to the idea that I had an entirely new role to fill. I think it's the same now. I'm a MOTHER? ME? Wow.
And yet, in another way it's not so strange at all. As many of you know, Matt and I have waited a LONG time for this and on many occasions wondered if we'd ever be blessed with biological children. Now, as if by some miracle, the time has come. On one hand it feels as though this moment took forever. On the other hand it feels as though it came super fast. I suppose both are true!
Here, Jen (the nurse) is getting us set up. Brynn is covered for warmth under the blanket.