Well, I decided to be a good girl and stay down as much as I can for as long as I can. The most important thing is that Heidi gets the best chance possible and that I can look back without regrets.
I also started thinking that part of applying faith is realizing that I'm really not in control as much as I think I am--and I just have to trust that God will take care of the details. Matt will either be here or he won't and we've known that was a risk since I was hospitalized 10 weeks ago. Nothing has changed. We'll be fine, either way; and it'll all work out for the best if I do my part to be the best Mommy I can be.
We're in the home stretch! Just a little longer, Mommy!
Noah's 5th Birthday
2 months ago