Friday, October 8, 2010

I Decided

Well, I decided to be a good girl and stay down as much as I can for as long as I can. The most important thing is that Heidi gets the best chance possible and that I can look back without regrets.

I also started thinking that part of applying faith is realizing that I'm really not in control as much as I think I am--and I just have to trust that God will take care of the details. Matt will either be here or he won't and we've known that was a risk since I was hospitalized 10 weeks ago. Nothing has changed. We'll be fine, either way; and it'll all work out for the best if I do my part to be the best Mommy I can be.

We're in the home stretch! Just a little longer, Mommy!


~N

4 comments:

Brady and Rachel said...

Wow! So I've tried to avoid the internet quite a bit these past two weeks and focus a little more on the kiddos. With that said, I missed checking your blog because I was no longer in the habit of checking it regularly, and WOAH! A lot has happened since you were released! I wondered when I heard you were being released if it would actually be harder being home than being in the hospital. Obviously I've never gone through all you have, so I didn't know for sure, but the thought of being on bed rest at home when your cute kiddo was and where you could hear her and she would want you to do all the things you used to do at home, but you can't, would be gut wrenching. However, REMEMBER, kids are SO RESILIENT! If you haven't seen it yet, it will come. Before you know it, life will be back to normal and she will have the mommy she loves as her #1 back in full swing. This is a challenge God has given you and there is NO DOUBT you AND your family (Brynn, Matt and baby Heidi) will be SOOOOO BLESSED!!!! Prayers are with you in the meantime though as you face it all head on. So happy to hear you are pregnant, but at the same time would love to see that your sweet hubby can be with you when Heidi makes her debut! Whatever God's plan is, I pray it will come to pass and you will be SOOOO BLESSED! Thanks for sharing all your thoughts, both the eternal perspective and the "human" thoughts too. You are human, but you are quick to remember Him and His Plan.

Lyndsay said...

Hang in there! So exciting reading your posts. Your big belly looks darling! :)

Joy said...

I've been blessed never to have a preemie, but I've been where you are now. I had preterm labor on and off from 26 and 24 weeks with my two kids, both went fullterm after 3 months of bedrest. That last bit is painful and frustrating, and somehow I felt silly. But hang in there. Bringing my babies home right away was priceless. Your girls are so lucky to have such a dedicated, loving mommy!

Finn Clan said...

34 weeks! What a miraculous milestone you've reached. We are so so so happy for your & your little family. I so admire you cousin, hang in there, you're so close. :)